(January 22, 10:36pm)

My depression has become more like caprice..it's happening in quick successions..rather than the longer ones earlier....i dont know if i should derive any positivity here..but, at least, this makes the pain less tormenting...and when im okay, i can also quickly make some damage controls, which werent otherwise possible..

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Why do i keep getting these glimmers of hope..nothing materialises..these just come around as fragments of good times, and then things are again wayward..i want something more complete, something which stays..lets see..im hopeful..and not because, it gives us happy illusions..hope for me is more than just thinking positive..it's associating with the divine..with the Gods..from where all trust and positivity stem..

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