(June 29, 12:32 pm)

Happy B'de, Skm sir!

Remembering you..

Remembering the tranquility that surrounds you..

And remembering no less the fireworks' explosion of joy,

which it has meant to us all!

XXX

(June 28, 11:59pm)

Just returned from a friend's b'de get-together.. You know one of them was like, "Dude, pls get me a pic with Arindam...... i vouch id do anything you say.."

"Will he be himself training you??"

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They are excited about my joining The Sunday Indian!

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(June 28, 10:19am)

I was thinking of Shafaq the other day..Did i love her?

when we studied in Std I in Mrs U Singh's school..

Well, im not sure..all i know is i hated this teacher who reshuffled everybody's places...and i and Shafaq weren't sitting together anymore..

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I hated Vikram too..whenever he shared her tiffin..and not because i'd be getting lesser shares.. I just disliked Vikram anywhere around her..

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When Mrs Khasnobis, the class teacher, read us Snow White, I thought she were the beleaguered princess... and I the rescuer..

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I left for St Xavier's in Std IVth... and then only once saw her in the city bus, sometime around 1999...when i was in std XIth, i saw her pic in the newspaper..she was enrolled in MMC..and had won the Ms Fresher award..

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She must be married with two kids now..

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(June 28, 10:06am)

(June 23, 1:37pm)

Super excited about working with Arindam Choudhary...Can you believe he'd be grooming me directly?

And he's such a gentleman...although i had agreed on the same CTC as i drew in The Hindu, he gave 25k hike willingly!

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(June 23, 12:03am)

It's a magazine, between!

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(June 21, 5:22pm)

Sent them the acceptance letter finally...I'd be joining on July 20...But, there's a string.. i have changed the venue for announcement..

Interested parties can keep watching the space on FB...anon followers would kill me now..there had been above 100 pageviews in 48 hours..

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It's not that it was the biggest brand..from among the 3-4 i had...

but they are accommodating me as correspondent..giving me 25K hike to what i earned at the Hindu.. which in fact is generous, considering i've worked for only 4 mnths..and, the beat is purely politics..

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And on the top of it, they'd transfer me to Patna upon 10 mnths' work..if i so desire..but between that, i'd be in Delhi..my second home..

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(June 19, 9:29pm)

A glorious end of the series...the Jhansi ki Rani finale on Zee...

Undying courage, undettered resolutions...million salutes for the martyred queen!

XXX

I swear you'd love this..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNq4fx8_olk

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(June 19, 6:10pm)

Finally decided..and i have actually sent a polite letter to 1 of the organisations..declining their offer at the desk..although it was a huge name...the ultimate no. 1 magazine..

I guess the 2nd option suits my purposes better, though..will send them letter of acceptance tomorrow..and then, would tell you here in this blog...wait out lil more..

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(June 19, 11:31am)

Had been checking magicbricks.com...i need an apartment in Noida..and im planning in advance..no i havent been able to decide btw the two offers yet..

Which i had shortlisted from the four i had..

But that doesnt obstacle my look-out for a flat..both require me in Delhi....

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Will have decided by evening..and make an announcement here too..

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(June 19, 11:26am)

Jhansi ki Rani ends today..the tv series...I had been devotedly watching it Since May last..when i was home after convocation..

The series had actually been on airs for few months already..but at ACJ, there was no scope to watch..i did have a studio apartment..fully furnished..and with TV too...but there was hardly time to spare..

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I guess i first watched the series during the winters of 2009-10..the second sems had ended, and i was holidaying at home..i instantly was in love with it..

All those abeyant thoughts...the childhood memories...the flame that ignited my mind once, had come crowding back again..

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I think I was three...muma had put a large poster in the wall..next to our bed...it listed the heroes of the war..the 1857 revolutionaries..

But, the only person who had overwhelmed my visions, was this gallant queen...i'd ask mumma to recount me her tales almost every night..and she'd oblige willingly..

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There was this Azadi ki Kahani on Doordarshan..aired on saturday mornings..every week they'd essay the life and travails of the war heroes by turn..and i remember this particular saturday, when muma was gettin' ready for her classes..

While i was all glued to tv..watching this charismatic Rani....muma was about to go...and i remember i was totally baffled..how could anybody miss the episode and be off for college..it was Jhansi ki rani special...??

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There was this chapter on the queen in the soc science book...during std 1.. the teacher said she'd skip it, since we all must be knowing about the queen already..and i had feigned i was ignorant..i could never let that be skipped...

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Today i'd watch the last episode...i had cried in the finale...when it was aired on Doordarshan...in 1996...

Im sure id be very upset this time too...im already depressed thinking there wouldn't be the episodes from monday...what would i do btw 8 and 8:30??

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While at work in Mangalore, id watch the belated episodes on youtube..

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The Rani can never die really...

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(June 17, 5:08pm)

After the haircut at Habib's..

(June 17, 5:07pm)

Snap 1: With A*** at KFC, CP..

(June 17, 1:52pm)

Why did i read each one of Anon 99's comments five five times in a row?

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(June 17, 1:44pm)

The Courier informs, couple of days before ACJ convocation, a senior professor, who anyway had always thought of me highly, had been telling juniors about the duke's falsedom...and with his actual name and designation..

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Good...the grounds are prepared already..and by now, i too am relieved from bankruptsy and career concerns.. i cant miss out on the opportunity..

I'd be making long calls to most of the senior faculties now..and tell them all about that rogue..how he advised me to become live-in with my acj colleague...the sexual jokes he hurled on us both..the tamperings he'd do wth our production..like deleting the byline tag..or putting the entire text on photo credit..and everything..

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(June 17, 1:36pm)

All ears to what Anon 99 suggests, I too am keen on finalising things.. only that it has to be perfect this time.. may be that's how the delay..

Technically, this would be my second job.. but i very much want to begin this with the same zeal that is noticeable in one's first innings..

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Cutting the crap, i have zeroed on in two offers out of the four i have..but yes, little more contemplation becomes warranted at this point..

Will have decided by Sunday...actually i'd make the declaration on Sunday..watch the space..

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(June 15, 11:38pm)

Anon Polished, hello..sending you warm hugs.. and tighter ones too...hope that makes out for whatever there was last time..wudnt call that animosity..as I wudnt want that with anybody ever..

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It was just that i didnt really reflect your thoughts about me..and some other anon frnds reacted too sharply..which you may have read as a defence incited by me myself..cumon, how can i ever incite anonymous ppl possibly?

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Let bygones be bygones...i differ with opinions...but im mostly indifferent to the critics actually..and that, in a positive sense...

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To answer your questn, I was lookin for anon 99...thats how he likes calling herself.. unlike you, who's visiting the blog after a full year, she kept popping..and he even commented sometimes..

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It's wierd..im using he and she for the same person...anon 99, why cant you tell me your gender at least..and why cant we go for brunch at ccd?

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How you doing..and yeah, if you are curious and need answers for your own comfort, pls percieve it from my angle and my situation too..may be then, you'd realise i shud be allowed the privilege of knowing you by a better name than anon polished..

Whatsay?

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(June 15, 11:26pm)

Seems my secret society is leaking more news about me..than to me..ppl have already known, the Delhi trip wasnt the usual holidaying..there had been sms-s and calls...and they have discussed it otherwise..wch had somehow reached my ears..

Word of mouth kind of..

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Fine, it wasnt usual holidaying there..i was in talks with some organisations, happy?

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And yes, there are 3-4 good offers..but by joves, i havent signed any one of that yet..Need a week more to contemplate..

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(June 15, 11:21pm)

You know I met Mustaque ji today...the old rickshaw puller..one of mamma's aides when we were grwoing up..and lived in that big, cottage-house in Sultan Ganj..

with that Kadam tree spreading its huge, leafy branches all over..kadam..what do you call that in English?

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He had heard of the news somewhere..and he was too anxiously shooting his questions..which of-course stemmed from his genuine concern for us..like whether we were left with enuf resources..whether the funeral had been elaborate enuf..to say meet muma's stature..and the kind of ppl who had come for homage..

He tried asking all that..subtly, so as to not hurt my feelings, say if the circumstances hadnt been generous..

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I booked him for the rest of the day..like muma would do when we were young...we had some 6-7 retainers..the family's old guards..the kind of arrangements mumma had had, while she was grwoing up..only that then, it was the luxary arriving out of too much money...and the lifestyle which it therefore stipulates on you..

We had similar comforts..but not as much money..mumma might have been masters in mathematics..but was naive in its airithmetical implications certainly..

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He wanted a minute by minute narration of whatever happened...I obliged..then he longed to see her picture....

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He, Kuddus ji were the two pullers, muma would engage all day..one to escort her to college and then home everyday..and Mustaque ji just if the maids needed to go around marketing or somewhere..or else, he wud take us to grannie..

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That time it was usual arrangement..now i know the price for it...telling you, it costs you fortune..to have two rickshaws booked all day..and throughout the month..mumma never bothered..our comfort was more important..

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We had these three aayas (helps) too..Syama Dasi..the old, frail refuge from (now Bangladesh) East Bengal..who wudnt be able to help in any sense at all..and whom, mumma still wudnt relieve.."How wud she make her living then?" she'd argue..

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Malti ji and Kaalo were the other ones..

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We didnt have a car then..Mumma wasnt left with too much deposits..he usurped it all by fraud..when she separated..

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I wanted to do the grossery..Mustaque ji took me to that old shop..which was quite a haunt for elites then..he dusnt realise, it aint anymore..

and more importantly, he dusnt realise i aint elite anymore..unless i restore all of muma's money, and multilpy that too dexterously..

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Purely airithmetically, mumma too hadnt been elite..the implications of "Biswas (her surname)" had long vanished..since muma's grandfather breathed last, i guess..because whatever airethmetical unadroitness i keep complaining about, muma had learnt it all from her father itself..

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Her family had been doing good in Bengal..and they were called Mitra then..until, the local king conferred the title "Biswas"..sometime around late nineteenth centure may be..

But mumma's lifestyle and her tastes had remained unambiguously elite..

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I got Mustaque ji a Loongi (a 10-yard cloth worn by labourers often)..and paid him triple of what he would have earned rightfully..thats how mumma would do..

Actually, mumma would have given him few kilos of mangoes too..and got dinner parcelled for him..I guess i did my best still..

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He was very happy to know there hadnt been financial implications of mumma's passing away..I let him have his false contentment...

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He kept recounting the goods mumma had done him...and that was quite a list i tell you..the Gods...they have given me a mother ppl so dearly acknowledge..im privileged..

and you know what, there wasnt any iota of attitude there..no desire to take credit for what she'd do..she wudnt want receipts for the charities even..unless ppl convinced her there wasnt anything wrong there..

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"Ek haath deele, aarek haath na jaante paak..se-tai deya" she'd tell us.. (When one hand gives, even the other hand shudnt know..giving with humility is true giving)..

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"Aapke nanaji to bhagwaan aadmi thhen" Mustaque ji said.. (Your maternal grandpa was a God).."Yeah, thats how my naani ended up an exiled Goddess," I thought..

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(June 14, 10:41pm)

Returned frm Delhi today...must admit, it was quite a time there...anyway, more on that only later..too tired to type even...you too wait, anon polished..

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It's 9 months...got the house cleaned specially..and then did-up the pooja space, next to which i have the DP...got tuberose garlands again..that was her fav..and a vase full of red roses..i keep rotating colours..last time it was a mix of yellow and whites..

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(June 11, 12:16am)

M***** thought this pic was good.."Sahi hai yaar, french beard mein handsome lag raha hai" (Good it is..looking handsome with those french beard)..

May be thats how i have made this my new DP..

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for anon 99

(June 11, 12:11am)

How Nice it would be na, if good sense prevailed on Anon 99..and like he/she called me up for brunch at CCD..like i had with V*****a and M***** today..

But for that she's supposed to be here at Del..who knows he/she might be..but good sense... that it is..it dusnt cum knocking so often..and specially at times when you need it...

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Earlier i had some inkling about him/her...but when recently my secret society revealed certain names..like the ones who followed my blog still..i was confused..

Because they were like, you know i didnt even know them properly..and by joves, had never thought they would have any affinity for me ever..

Did i tell you even Amr*** Bya**** follows my posts!

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So not sure who Anon 99 is..i mean i dont even have clues now..but really wanting for a brunch at CCD..

Not that im in love with anon..like it usually is in the grimm brothers...the prince, bewitched into a frog by the wicked magician, waiting for his lady miserably....and hoping her tear-droplets restore his body again..

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And then how might i love anon when i dont even know anon's gender..like unless my orientations are strikingly versatile..wch unfortunately it is not..

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Look Anon..enuf of hide and seek...reveal identity..pls..this is silly..you cant do this to anybody..you're just not supposed to..didnt they tell you that in the value-added education classes..??

Or is it that you bunked?

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At least gender, and your acj stream..

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(June 10, 11:12pm)

Oh it was back-breaking sessions of meeting up old pals..First V*****a..the acj frnd who i met up for brunch at CCD..then I***n, my junior at Xaviers..

And then the hour long chat with M****a..ACJ frnd...who i caught up with at KFC later...

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But nice experience...M specially complimented me for the new hair-do...like quite many times..although she thought i looked a tad dry..Delhi impact it is, i told her..

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(June 10, 11:31am)

I must learn doing things less hurriedly..there's always this restlessness in me..and im mostly sceptical too..not about my own abilities, but about how destiny might work..

This makes me impatient...like i get back on things and ppl before im supposed to..likw i know, the deal i was talking about might take some time..may be a week or two...but im already anxious..

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This gets reflected physically too...i end up straining myself more than i would otherwise..mumma's so cool..she can do two dozen important things simultaneously..and still remain vivacious and composed..

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It was nice time at Saket City Walk..last evening...except we dint find anything suitable for A***...most were the hackneyed summer colors...tomorrow we'd be off for Great India Place..the Noida mall..

Lets see if i get something good there..

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Meeting a Xaverian friend today..my junior..and an Acjian friend too..she was in print...and we were quite a group at the library during march-april..

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(June 09, 2:38pm)

Im making good use of my Delhi stay...about to clinch something big..touch-wood, touch-wood...

In terms of brand count, not as big may be..as i've already declined the biggest, you see...but it's significant in its own right..

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And anyways, i have this obsession for grandiloquence, remember..no, not the ornamented or boisterous kind..something simple, but which stands out for its gifted elan..

I like that reflected in one's fashion quotient too..

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Anyway, once i finalise something, i'll let you know..

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Met an ACJ friend yesterday..he had called me at his workplace..at HT office here..we had this heart to heart talk after really long....pleasant memories ambling into our souls again..

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I'd be meeting V****** and M***** tomorrow...
both ACJ frnds...

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This idiot A*****... he spoiled today's plans at the last moment..and dint have the basic courtesy to inform either of A*** or me even..

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Anyway, A*** still insists we two go out in the evening..and anyway i need to buy him the shirt..it's his birtday on 28th, and i guess i wouldnt be around then..

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Goddess (the usual one), pls pls.. pls make this happen...And you too, Goddess (the other one, im emphatically praying to off late)..

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(June 07, 11:47pm)

I'm slowly beginning to look better..after it happened, the crisis had become glaringly apparent..all over the face..and also my eyes..which had lost its language..

After the photo-session at KFC, i felt better..im not looking the "tormented" anymore...

(June 07, 11:35pm)

Oh it was ages, since i went for a hang-out....nice three-some it was at CP..and later at India Gate...

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Going for a movie on 9th...at the noida mall...I wouldnt be around on Ashu's b'de...so need to buy something for him...he's my bestest frnd...nobody could be so compellingly affectionate like him..

He bore me up in my hour of crisis..i guess it has to be really a nice shirt...lets see...first the movie, then shopping spree..

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But my tomorrow's Noida plan is totally different...they dnt even know bout it..Ashu and A*****

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(June 07, 3:54pm)

Did i tell you i went to Habib's yesterday..oh this stylist was having no end of grandmama's concern..

I kept insisting he used chemicals..but he was like, "Oh, I cant kill the natural texture..ur hair's so beautifully heavy and thick..." "Why would anybody want to damage that?"

Bla, bla..

At one point i was almost about to tell him, "Im coughing up the money, you pls dont sermon.."

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Anyway, he's styled it exactly as i desired...like in the picture, which i uploaded some time back..in one of the posts..

But, i need to labour with it, each time i sported it..and that is tad irritating, im telling you..

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He's asked me to use mousee in place of gel..

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(June 07, 3:40pm)

It's barely 30 hours in Del, and already got acnes in the forehead..unbearable heat here..

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Hadn't really told anybody about my stay here...except my Xavierian frnds, wth whom some chitto-chat is long due..

But seems, two ACJians got to know about my plans, from the blog..will be meeting them too..

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The receptionist at *ndia *oday was quite a bomb...you can make it super bomb, actually..im mostly conservative in evaluation..

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Would be visiting Noida tomorrow..some last minute urgency..

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(June 06, 11:25am)

Delighted at the "lathi charge" at Ramdev's camp...The UPA is diging its own grave, and i cant be happier..

And yes, i said delighted, because there hadnt been casualties...okay, some are hurt...but that much price anyways is warranted, if an extra-ordinarily corrupt and unabashed govt has to be ousted..

I myself wouldnt mind a few of them!

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(June 05, 12:09am)

I don't like Baba Ramdev.
Im not exactly enamoured by his "anshan" either.

But so long as this works against "that party",
im happy about it..

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Is Moldova some country?
I have had two readers from there today..

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(June 4, 6:03pm)

Just fixed an appointment with Habib's...
Leaving for Delhi tomorrow..

Lotso' ppl to catch up with!

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(June 3, 12:43am)

And yeah, i had been telling you about some girl too...anyway, nothing to update...have been too busy to breathe even...and anyway i dnt plan to get married before 33-34...

So logically there cant be room for love before 30-31...

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Does logic actually work in love?
Now that is a question!

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Anyway, im not in love...i mean i have experienced it more often in day-dream sessions...like in idle afternoons...i have many of them actually..

The best part is you're not inhibited thinking, what if they give you 2 marks on 10...for the proposal...or for me may be, more importantly the way you propose...

I see im very obsessed with presentation...there cant be any mediocracy there...oh what am i saying..i think i must sleep now...

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If it were some performance, i can woo a girl very well...no not day-dreams, in reality...but it has to be just a performance...i had been good elocutionist after all...and i cam emote as well...

but it has to be a shoot kind of...not real...may be because i really havent fallen in love...Mary Pascal, Svethlana Banerjee (Swabhimaan, remember?) were okay..but then, that was like reading Grimm Brothers...you're filled with ecstasy..and suddenly you are imagining they are your Snow Whites coming out of the books..

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I was telling you about the performance...the other problem is i can do it in only certain environment...and with certain people...everything grandiloquent...i really am at my best in such ambience...

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But more importantly, I really am sleepy and i better sleep now...this would become the most embarrassing post otherwise...

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(June 3, 12:18am)

E**z****h *****s* must have joined by now..and *e***i *h**** too...God bless...or should i say, god save!!!!

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(June2, 11:59pm)

Oh sorry for losing touch... had been rather busy...so no updates...
Missed me? I know, i know...

There had been frantic views even then...
interestingly, people had been reading old posts..

The stats tell it all!

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So how do i begin? Like i need to write everything...remember it's kind of a counselling i seek here...

So am i making this a consolidated post..
or will fragmented ones be better?

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I think it was the pirates movie where i had stopped...hmm...so it so happened that somebody has been wanting to outsmart me...and i have to give "him" a piece of his own medicine..

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And what a good timing that S****m is in town...a goodbye sojourn before he leaves for Coloumbia in July...

For starters he's my childhood friend...a lawyer and research assistant to SC judge...we tune in really well, and he's been such a comfort as legal aide i tell you..

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So i told him about "his" evil plans...and how "he" wont be ever willing to return me the surety bonds..

"That's a trifle, you'll get the money," S****m assures...

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Next day (monday i guess) we're at the LIC headquarters....and though im not goin to tell you what exactly had been the developments, i must tell you lawyers can screw you big time if they want...

But of-course you'd enjoy if the tormented are your adversaries, right? huh...mean!

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Anyway...i went to the LIC again today...not the headquarters...the Mahendroo branch, where my policies were issued...lets see if the duplicate sureties can be obtained...like S*****m proposes...

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Meanwhile S****m accompanied me to my advocate yesterday...and it was goosebumping experience there...but thats gonna be some real talk, man..lets have a separate post...

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After we were done with the advocate we went to REgent Cinemas...where a third friend waited with the tickets already...this time 3d experience in "Haunted"...

Then a binging round (im a teeto-teller, though, and preferred crispy lamb with salt and peeper) at Kapil's 11...at the boys lounge...and then to my place for dinner..

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By the way it's really heading for a climax...did i tell you? They told me at LIC today, he's already taken the money...the one wch matured last year..

The officer tells me a cheque of 75k was issued in April '10...on my name...and know what, the status says "encashed"...

So "he" must have forged my signatures...and got away with it...good....too good...now i can nail "him" with the help of muma's frnds...the influential ones...

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But none of that now..Anando Bhakto knows exactly when to strike, and how to strike...and he knows to hold back at times too...

But despite all his pragmatism, he's the lose-all vulnerable...with everything that has to do with the heart...which he anyway employs more often than he employs his head..

When im friends with sbd, i blindly trust...And even though when the other party betrays, i foolishly keep trusting..and get deceived willingly...and then feel dejected at the loss of a friend...rather than take lessons and act more wisely..

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Anyways...nothing in the case of the LICs...like i said it's a friend that can betray me and take advantage of me...not adversaries...

There shudnt be room for complacency though...he's planning...and thats apparent actually...but im too tired to write about it..so wait for the next updates...goodnite..

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