(January 20, 3:11pm)

Palatable illusions can give you a lot of relief, but sadly only temporarily..and so my depression is getting the better of me again..

it's good to hope, and visualise things in your mind..the ones you want, the way you want..and believing this will be reflected in real life too..

But then thats just a delusion of the mind..and no matter how pally and comforting it is, you get to come out at some point..and when you do, an even darker world awaits you..

In one hour, ill get to know my fate..either i'll make it, or i wont make it..then? what next? how do i sustain this.....my existence!

XXX