(January 18, 5:31pm)

I feel so sidelined..there hasnt been any response from their side..ya, the same people...with whom things almost run wayward..or who knows, may be totally..there's this strange silence..what's in their mind, how are they gonna react? Im totaly clueless..

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I hope the Gods help out..even they seem to have forgotten me, particularly the Goddess..it's been ages since i spoke to her..i pray every morning without relent..but then, that's different..i havent been communing with the Goddess now..there was this time when she was the be all and end all..now i just offer her prayers, amongst other Gods..she doesnt talk to me anymore..and thats clearly perceptible..

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