I keep doing things that doctors would like me not to do.
Reminiscing past moments is one of them.

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Okay, there shouldn't be any issues here...

But, Im doing it to extents where the present shrouds into the past.
People want me do it the other way round.

I would not listen...

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So here I am into recalling things passionately.. Almost visualisng them.. Actually, totally...

I become a part of them again...and re-live those moments again...with as much intensity as I must have done when they actually happened!

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Coming back is difficult.
Coming back to the present..which is barren...and hence, discomforting!

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It feels strange.
It feels desperate.

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It becomes uncontrollable.

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But the prelude to it is tempting.
And certainly worth the pain (which folllows).

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