(Nov 14, 10:27am)
More reasonably, I think it is lack of planning.. or at any rate, the indecision at present to determine which of the few plans I have, would work best.. that is making me depressed...
Besides, of-course, I'm tired by the travel... and there's this jet-lag too..
XXX
Weather too is glum... But it distresses me to think I should be weary of winters again... last winter, given that I wasn't having any mood swings, I enjoyed myself thoroughly..
Like I used to earlier.. when grandmum was alive.. and I'd be off to her place for larger part of December..
XXX
Anyway... so what I must do is decide on one plan and concentrate...
Getting back to job is important.. but I also need to think wisely on the couple of offers I have.. in fact, I have this feeling that I forego them, and visit Kashmir instead...
For doing some features and human rights reporting.. something I have been wanting to, for almost two years now..
That would also help me build the environment and premises for my future novel.. and then go to Delhi and look for fresh openings around Jan end..
That would be the best.. still better, if I could convince the HRs to delay the joining dates for the positions they are offering, or may be make some good excuse..
XXX
Also, I noticed that I do not have much snacks at home.. which may be another cause for depression.. yes, usually I keep different kinds of snacks.. nimki.. chanachur... dalmuts of different varieties... what do you call them in English..
Whenever idle, I keep chewing.. that helps avert depression... yes, seriously... don't laugh.. and I can scientifically explain..
XXX
See why does depression happen? Because you ain't content with how things are around you, and you either fret or brood..
Or may be you are sad over some unpleasant incident in the past.. which comes back to haunt you when you ain't doing anything..
But as you chew, the different snacks I mean, incessantly, you focus on that activity... if you're chewing very hot snacks, of-course you are further absorbed into that activity, because of the sensation in your tongue..
There is no time or space for brooding... that evil pastime brooding that makes you uneasy and gloomy... you chew, and you ain't depressed...
XXX
More reasonably, I think it is lack of planning.. or at any rate, the indecision at present to determine which of the few plans I have, would work best.. that is making me depressed...
Besides, of-course, I'm tired by the travel... and there's this jet-lag too..
XXX
Weather too is glum... But it distresses me to think I should be weary of winters again... last winter, given that I wasn't having any mood swings, I enjoyed myself thoroughly..
Like I used to earlier.. when grandmum was alive.. and I'd be off to her place for larger part of December..
XXX
Anyway... so what I must do is decide on one plan and concentrate...
Getting back to job is important.. but I also need to think wisely on the couple of offers I have.. in fact, I have this feeling that I forego them, and visit Kashmir instead...
For doing some features and human rights reporting.. something I have been wanting to, for almost two years now..
That would also help me build the environment and premises for my future novel.. and then go to Delhi and look for fresh openings around Jan end..
That would be the best.. still better, if I could convince the HRs to delay the joining dates for the positions they are offering, or may be make some good excuse..
XXX
Also, I noticed that I do not have much snacks at home.. which may be another cause for depression.. yes, usually I keep different kinds of snacks.. nimki.. chanachur... dalmuts of different varieties... what do you call them in English..
Whenever idle, I keep chewing.. that helps avert depression... yes, seriously... don't laugh.. and I can scientifically explain..
XXX
See why does depression happen? Because you ain't content with how things are around you, and you either fret or brood..
Or may be you are sad over some unpleasant incident in the past.. which comes back to haunt you when you ain't doing anything..
But as you chew, the different snacks I mean, incessantly, you focus on that activity... if you're chewing very hot snacks, of-course you are further absorbed into that activity, because of the sensation in your tongue..
There is no time or space for brooding... that evil pastime brooding that makes you uneasy and gloomy... you chew, and you ain't depressed...
XXX
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