(Nov 13, 8:52pm)

Why am I suddenly depressed again? It was now a year since I last had mood swings.. I thought it was cured forever... how again?

Isn't the emerald working anymore... What do I do? Do I need to clean it with brush, and wipe out the dirt that might have accumulated by now... as somebody suggested I do, as stones stop working otherwise...

Or is it that I am too tired, and I am mistaking fatigue for distress? That cannot be.. depression is unmistakable.. at least I can't mistake something else for it..

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Or is that because my latest pic on a social networking site wasn't too well-received... as I would have imagined.. or as my other snaps did...

But that is frivolous.. I ain't frivolous..

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Meanwhile I am back to India...

So?

Is it just jet-lag showing up rather bitterly.. I don't know... But I am really depressed... after say 13-12 months...

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Good for the blog.. when I am sad, I write more often...

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