My secret society tells me a lot of ACJians follow my blog annonymously!

Strange...

Very strange!

Why do most ppl assume i'm inaccessible?
and why do they have to think if they approach me, i'll refuse their friendship?
that i'll put scorn at their proposal, and dismiss them as petty ppl, not worthy of my esteem?

why this skepticism?
why (falsely) believe i'm haughty?

These guys have all the time in the world to talk ABOUT me-
im told, they discuss my writings, they evaluate my persona, they judge my skills, and they also talk about a whole lot of other things that i could be related to.....

but they, for reasons i cannot comprehend, do not talk TO me!

Some of them even bitch.....

actually many!

infact, there's a whole gang!

There's this particular room in the girls' hostel, where this lady- her name starting with the letter C- will pick up lines from the assignments i have done in class, and imitate them to her other friends....and those lines, which have otherwise drawn accolades from the teachers, would then be greeted with jeers and catcalls!

I know it all, Miss C!

and then, this prank-mill....
the president of this maligning society is a boy- whose name begins with the same letter as mine, and who lives in the villa....
he's helped by a general secretary- a girl, whose name again starts with the letter A, and who hails from Delhi....

These two had been spoiling my name for a long time now...

During the first term, they said i was a womaniser....
infact, they got this other girl- again from Delhi, and whose name, interestingly, again begins with the letter A- who, in the middle of the class, adjusted her top with practised aplomb, and said i was embarrasing her...

such malice?
such contempt?
such heinous desire to annihilate your rivals?
and all this, at such young age?

Anyway, nobody believed it....

but ASS-iduous ppl that they are, they surprised me in the second term...
The president and the general secretary awarded me a promotion...

from a womaniser, almost overnight, i became a gay.
yeah, you heard it right....a Gay!

So many of my friends complained to me about this.... alerted me,...and incited me for revenge...

i had none!

Not because, i could not possibly hurt them... but i felt, responding to those "little things" would mean i was distracted.
i concentrated on studies, instead...

Meanwhile, the "little things" dint remain quiescent for long!

to give you the updates, im a bisexual now....
and honestly, iv little doubts, that by the time we have our convocation, i will have become a transgender....

or, who knows, may be a paedophile...

yeah, paedophile sounds really scandalous!!!
i know, they never ask me what id prefer...but still, "paedophile" would be so much more innovative!


...........................Now i must ask myself, why do i need to write all this in my blog today?

Do i want this message conveyed to them?
that im aware they spoil my name?

nah... as i already said, they are little things...i really dont care!
and then, i dont need to shield myself either...even their best buddies, who, for their sheer love for scandal, relish the nasty gossips, do not believe them really...infact, they respect me... and they value my work, too!

So, is it that my patience has given up?
am i looking forward to solace and comforting?

possibly, not...
im born to a strong woman, i must remember!

then?

may be, i just want to know.....
that why these ladies and men, who for all their love and aversion, follow my blogs, follow it secretly?

Why the mistrust?

I really want to know......