For the last couple of days or so, i have not been looking good...dark...thinner...lifeless....these unkind adjectives, it seems, now befit me more...yesterday was worse...i cudn't look at myself...under the arc lights of that showroom, where i went to buy sum dress...

it hurts, .... more so when you are used to looking good...more so when some heads have turned back on you for a second glance..In ACJ lot of people said i looked professional...in july, when i used to wear some fine fabric formals..they dont, anymore..
not that im stealing lines from a dear friend of mine, who shares similar dismay in her blogs!

i am worried, indeed........To be gracefully thin is an asset...but like all assets, it needs safeguarding...You lose a couple of pounds, and the word "feeble" comes to define you..Your graceful thinness deteriorates into a lanky shape...
And iv lost those couple of pounds ever since i came here...never to put them on again...that doesn't mean im thinking in terms of having extra kilos and sidepipes as security..I'd always prefer being slender...it feels nice..it gives you a decent profile, too....anyways, i have to look good again, before placement happens...not for the recruiters, but myself...for my own satisfaction...